i have to

berhabuk diari aku ni.

lots of thing happened made me realize woahhh i'm growing up so fast man it's scary.
i'm not quite ready yet. i'm still the old ain that dusnt know how to make decisions oh her own and voila it's already the end of year 2011 and my 21st year. God. how scary is that when u think back u have no contributions to the world, to ur life, ur deen.

and i'm not ready to face the obstacles that are coming ahead of me.
i'm not ready for more backstabbing
i'm not ready for more lies
i'm not ready for people leaving me
i'm not ready for more mistakes that i even dun realize
i'm not ready to take risks
i'm not ready to be the leader
i'm not ready to become an adult
i'm not ready to make decisions

but, rather than i'm saying i'm not ready why not say i have to be ready.

i have to be ready to be in the society
i have to be ready to face problems
i have to be ready to have more backstabbing
i have to be ready for people leaving me
i have to be ready to lead
i have to be ready to decide

i have to be ready to grow!