i have to

berhabuk diari aku ni.

lots of thing happened made me realize woahhh i'm growing up so fast man it's scary.
i'm not quite ready yet. i'm still the old ain that dusnt know how to make decisions oh her own and voila it's already the end of year 2011 and my 21st year. God. how scary is that when u think back u have no contributions to the world, to ur life, ur deen.

and i'm not ready to face the obstacles that are coming ahead of me.
i'm not ready for more backstabbing
i'm not ready for more lies
i'm not ready for people leaving me
i'm not ready for more mistakes that i even dun realize
i'm not ready to take risks
i'm not ready to be the leader
i'm not ready to become an adult
i'm not ready to make decisions

but, rather than i'm saying i'm not ready why not say i have to be ready.

i have to be ready to be in the society
i have to be ready to face problems
i have to be ready to have more backstabbing
i have to be ready for people leaving me
i have to be ready to lead
i have to be ready to decide

i have to be ready to grow!

i heart malaysia, i can do it!

i have to study hard and accomplish wut i want to achieve in the land of pecel(hate that fud!). for the sake of my beloved malaysians. as they already serve for me. in turn i will serve for them. i love u, malaysia! in order to do that, i will encounter all the obstacles that come ahead and cope as much as i can. be it, pain from heart to butt. i will! i will! i can! i can do it! i must! i have to do it! <3

p/s: saNkyu chingu! saranghae! <3 <3 <3

humankind --> heartless monster there ever lived.

nobody seems to understand me. yeah. . . it's hard to understand one's feeling if we're not in his or her shoes ryte? but at least can u pretend to at least understand one's feeling when they're feeling rather down. well, we can't expect anythin ryte. at the end, it's me all alone. always like that. today, sum1 told me i'm the kind of person that judge ppl easily. well, i hefta change abt myself. see, it's not hard to say wut u're happy abt me. it'll solve everythin. i will try to change that fact abt myself. another fact abt humankind--> they find ppl's mistakes so hard to deal with but so hard to find their own mistakes, so deal with it! that's just plain humans.

A/N: ok, i HEFTA start to polish my english back! help! i'm a fish!

holding back.

humans don't realize wut their mistakes are. yes. by humans it includes me in.

sumtimes we din know that by teenie tiniest thing we cud be hurt.

vulnerable as we are, we hefta hold it back.

and

sumtimes we think that we're always ryte. yes. always.

the world has to go according to us.

that's just how ppl r.

that's just how life is.

harsh.

so just take it n bear it.

A/N: xsyiok la gigi jarang. makan jagung lekat celah gigi. hmmph.

I Guess It Is.

[12:55]

CM: "Was our friendship worth only this much to you?"

YH: "You...don't exist any more."

T.T

"A friendship that can end never really began.”

it fell hard.

boboiboy, perintis upin dan ipin!

assamalamualaikum all!

for the past years upin dan ipin has been a cartoon that has so many followers

be it local or overseas, Indonesia.

when i first came to Indonesia we went to buy things at GIANT(yes, Indonesia has GIANT:P),

then we were surprised by the cashiers when they say: "eh, upin ipin..."

and we were like, "aaa....." cause apparently we were pretty much unaware of how explosive upin ipin is in the land of pecel, Indonesia, esp in Java.

later on whenever we go, we will be called either upin ipin or kak ros.

once my friend got called by 'kak ros' name 3 times in one day. 

she was like do i look like kak ros dat much?

and now, we can see so many things with upin dan ipin printed on it.

u name it, pencil case, shirts, bags, and even bedsheets. everything. i mean, everything. and everywhere. 

u can say that i'm so proud to be malaysian during those times.(eventho not single episode i watch)

they were like so into upin ipin, unlike some of malaysians(din even watch UI, including me:P)

and everybody knows UI, my groupmate even memorized the lines in UI.o.m.g.

and only just now!

i came across some blog and found this.

it's called boboiboy! yehaaa!

 

haaa...cool isn't it? so charlieissocoollike lah kan.:P

eh tlgla, sgtla rusty BI aku, tukar mode ah------------> BM

ha, psl boboiboy, aku xsabar nk tgk kartun ni! tiba2 semangat nak sokong industri kartun tanah tumpah darah dan air keringat mata. boleh jadi perintis upin ipin lepas kartun geng. 

dah tengok dah video kat atas? cool kan graphic dy? suka2...cantik...

aku suka tgk cerita ala 3D...kartun 3D lain yang aku suke tgk---> Jimmy Neutron, besh! alaa...Jimmy neutron yang ada rambut cam jambu beranak terlebih bulan ada jambul cam jo jambul tu....hohoho...

pastu pastu....! Winnie The Pooh! haaaa....jangan bagi aku cerita sume kartun2 yang aku suka, tak kan habis! sikit je lagi....----->Bananas in Pajamas....chop! bukan 3D lah. akekek...hohoho..

haa, episod ni lah aku dan kawan aku tengah tengok sebelum kapal api cap kapal limau datang melanda rumah pink tiga tingkat kitorang noktah jap ok .

serious, boleh pulak kan tengah mengkaji-kaji sejarah UI pastu embak rumah aku panggil dengan suara nyaringnya-----> anak-anakku!!!!! turun!

haaa....apa lagi malam yang sgt brsejarah itu banyaklah keluar identiti2 dan bakat2 terpendam seperti identiti Rihanna (bajuuuu....seksi nak mampuih!nsb baik pencegah maksiat tak mai orang kedah habaQ) dan pemenang pertandingan pakai baju dalam masa 3 saat lah kan....

baiklah, bila nanny dah mengarut, mulalah xpaham kan....

okeylah i nak layan anime jap----> lovely complex! the midget otani and gigantic Risa! hohoho...

kasihan baru nak tgk...hohoho...episod 2 temen2! 

last but not least, congrats to our talented director Mohd. Nizam Abdul Razak  also the creator for Upin dan Ipin! yay! i can see improvements there! gudluck! fighting! :)

13 mac aku menanti! alaaaaaaaa.....dah balik Jakarta, nak tgk live dari TV3! sob3...

A/N: rusty tak rusty BI aku skema gilalah ayat sebijik sebijik....takpa...satlaagi cheQ gabuih dengan minyak sapi bagi gilap. and kapal api tu rumah aku kena longsap ngan api skala 2...haa...punyalah mengucap tak henti2 malam tu....hohoho...mlm ni pun...:)

Mood: gatal, by gatal i mean really gatal....itchy!

Location: land of pecel

Music: Abracadabra by Brown Eyed Girls 

atarashi tomodachi

hello there!(like ppl read my blog)

it's been a long time...i mean a longgg time...hohoho..

Hisashiburi!!!

Orenmanieh yo

hao jiu bu jian 

well, been busy wif life and catching up wif life, which means by my life is

catching up to watch latest dramas and a little of books(hence the alevel^^).

oh well, cut the crap.

now, meet my new friend. JIJI.

he has been my friend for about 2 weeks now.

i love him so much. cause what most important is that

he won't leave my side no matter what happens. 

yes, that is what i find in a friend. that is what friend means ryte? 

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

JIJI walks in while others walk out. :)

not leaving others behind. oh! sounds familiar, like in lilo n stitch! oh love that cartoon.:)

ohana means family. and family means no one gets left behind. ^^V

such short post...akekeke.....hohoho...

gotta go sleep, 2mrrw's bio practical exam.

whoever gonna screw 2mrrw's exam i surely cut his head off!

so back off n just answer it properly! aish!

Mood: hyped, but wanna sleep, wut to do?

Location: JiJi's world

Music: Keep Your Head Down- TVXQ

SUPER SHOW II IN MALAYSIA....UWAA!!!

aloo......hohohoho... uwaaa!!!super show II!!it was a blast!!saNkyuu MalaYsia!!so i decided to write a review on it...hohohoho..so here goes..super show 2 in malaysia review...


2:oo- out from college..wait for kereta teNoK moden(ktm)

mira...totally blue..

the tix..

lytestick...binocular...tix!!hohohoho...

4:oo-arrived at kl sentral..*excited*

5:oo-arrived at pukit jalil(according to kyuhyun)hohohoho.. disappointed..no big booths and banner like i expected...sob3..i wan couple banner...but i spotted eunhae banner...uwaaaa!!!

wait for entry....longggggggggggg entry..*tired*..n we spot kyuhyun's banner....it was from a bunch of fanboys...uwaaa!!proud of em...in a weird way...why maknae eh??maybe the voice..hohohoho...woot woot..go fanboys..

over there there were many famboys spotted..n even progression too..progression was there!!JJ-look-alike looks like JJ as usual..hohoho...

JJ-look-alike..he likes yuNho btw...

chat wif some elfs..they said they went early so they got the chance to see them rehearse..uwaa!!i wan too but...too early for me la..hohoho..

many came wif boyfrens....i wonder how will they be able to shout for suJu when suJu is in front of them..hmmm...hohohoho...

7:oo-inside the stadium..waiting like crazy for suJu...opening act by malaysian's artiste..i thot it's suJu ady my heart stopped...ceyh...i fink it's ultimate group from 8tv is it??but okla the performance...then malay boy came out..nobody knows him...but MIRA did!!!she said she watched him on tv1..woot woot my mom must be proud of MIRA....

mira was wavering whether to wait after opening or ryte after prayer time...hohoho..n i said wait during she wants it and angela bcoz we dun wanna miss U...then we jus went out considering there was no sign of suJu coming out yet..hohohoh...

that time...uwaaa!!i saw a magnificent creature..weyh exaggerate gle..hohoho...act a sushow staff..uwaaa!!soo cute..he was talking malay so fluent so i wonder whether he is malay or chinese....turned out that i spoke my thoughts out loud..n he said "cinela"...kawaiii!!!!(sorry out of topic..i was supposed to fall for my dear teukkie...hohoho...)

16th member of suJu...nola..it's the staff...hohohoho...


woot woot he got fanclub..hohohoho..
ppl were taking pic wif him but he looked at my way instead..
*blush blush*...hohohoho...

waiting to get a pic wif him.longg queue...hohoho..

8:oo after mira has performed solah..uiihh lamenye dy smayang...hohohoho... my heart was thumping...uwaaaa!!!!suJu came out!!!!at last!!the wait was suffocating...ceyh...hohohoho...i was screaming my heart out!!!!!!!!arghhhh...after all it's my first concert...hohohoho...

it was A MAN IN LOVE...i saw my teukkie...n i was chanting the chants that i half-half memorized wif mira... n it was U!!!!uwaaa!!i enjoyed it very much coz i memorized it...at first i was afraid that there wudnt be blue ocean considering considering not much of kpop act goin around here in malaysia..n guess what???there was!!!i was proud of elfs...hohohoho...but at my section not much of shouting n screaming n standing coz many parents n kids...urgghhh...

alamak byknye nk toolis.. OVERALL LA...

LEETEUK
uwaaa!!!he was dazzling...*bias bias*hohohoho...he was soo humble..all the time i was searching for him...i was asking mira all the time where is he where is he...n mira was busy looking for kyuhyun...muahhaha....i was quite clueless on most of the times...dun know who to see what to see coz there were so many to see...12 hot boys in front of me!!!!*die*..leeteuk's solo honey!!!he was like blushing n din know wut to do when all the girls touching him..hohoho..cute...end of his solo!!!!!he fake-kissed the girl!!!i was like ANDWEEEEEEE!!!surprisingly i screamed along wif the girl behind me...hohohoho...

SIWON
omg he's sooooo yummy!!!he was sooo handsome i almost cudnt believe my eyes..leeteuk was talking in korean n he translated it for him..soo cute leeteuk he was like how to say this eh?? YANA fell for siwon's abs lol...hohohoho...he took korea's flag n wore it around him...uwaa!!lucky fan..hohohoho...

YESUNG
uwaaa!!!my baby's hair not soo hot today...sob3...n he's kinda not in the mood..was he pmsing??sob3..i wan see more of him...but i fink it's bcoz he's always on the opposite side of ours...sob3...YESUNG saranghae..!!when they were playing water guns all of em like bang bang bang but yesung did it bang...bang..bang...i dun know how to convey..muahahaha...

KANGIN
uwaaa!!he didnt come...sob3...but when he was on the VCRs...uwaaa!!! i screamed my lungs out..ok..i screamed all the time...luckily i bought coke..omg i drank all of it soo fast...*wink*..miss him soo much...

KYUHYUN
kyuhyun was soo hot!!!neva thot maknae wud be that hot!!!n honestly he becomes hot n hottter these days...woot woot maknae...i said to mira i'll help her scream for kyuhyun n she'll too for leeteuk but then she OCCASIONALLy screamed for him...*bricked hard by mira*..hohohoho...kyuhyun's solo was at our section lucky mira..aish..

SUNGMIN
ok lucky mira again...he waved at our section n he looked at us!!!uwaaaa!!!he spotted me!!muahahahaha...hohohoho...but i dun like his hair...hohohoho...

RYEOWOOK
hmmm...this boy was surprisingly cute playing luna..i'm sorry i wasnt paying much attention to him b4 this..hohohoho..n his solo...woot woot!!!he touched the girl!!i was like uwaaa!!! n he was tiny playing luna...soo cute...n dancing wif hyukjae..woot woot....

ZHOUMI
uwaaaa!!!he's soo handsome...whenever he n henry came out i was giving my full support towards them!!!uwaaa!!!i enJoYed super girl veRY much!!!!but sadly in chinese..i only listen to korean version...hohohoho...

HENRY
omg hot!!!love him playing the violin!!!hohohoho..i was shouting henry henry..glad malaysia giving support to them...n if they were to become politicians they got my full vote that is!!!hohohohoho...

HEECHUL
he played sulli lol...hohohoho...n his solo he took off his shirt..when he carried the big fan lol..hohohoho...i was quite worried when heechul put the mic towards the audience but surprisingly i cud hear ppl singing along...saNkyuu malaysia...it was during rokkugo...i love that song!!!he was playful as usual...n funny...love the chu drama..hohoho...luna was like practically shocked when she saw sulli in gents...muahahaha...

SICHUL
i was rooting for sichul this con...but then it turned to be more of eunhae...one time heechul wanted to kiss siwon but then opps...hohohoho...he retrieved his lips back...wut am i writing??hohohoho.. n siwon touched henry's butt i was like omg!!!(sorry such a perv*wink*)

DONGHAE
uwaaa!!he's hot...ok all of em r...hohohoho...not much of him coz he's always on opposite too..hohohoho...

HYUKJAE
uwaaaa!!!he was sooo hot!!n soo lucky ppl at 458 seats when heartquake wif KRY...he was like in front of them!!!soo jealous!!

EUNHAE!!!
uwaaa!!last nyte was full of eunhae..i fink..or was it my bias??hmmm...i wan kangteuk but then kangin didnt come..sob3...hohohoho...one time donghae gave a handkiss to eunhyuk..dunno if it is called handkiss...sumwhat like kiss his hand first n placed it on hyukjae's lips..hohohoho...i was like uwaaa!!!hohohoho...n donghae always clinging to eunhae n eunhae to donghae...cute!!!

SHINDONG
he was thinner guys!!!!woot woot!!made shindong my trimdown idol..hohohoho..n his hair!!!suits him..hohohoho...he was playful too..

HANKYUNG N KIBOEM
uwaaaa!!!miss them...hope they r healthy n all back in korea..hohooh..n kiboem gudluck wif him acting n all...n siwon's too!!!he kissed chae rim!!cant wait for the new drama..hohohoho...

BLUE OCEAN
saNkyuu malaysia..hohohooh...i was quite surprised considering ppl said malaysia fans were not that passionate abt kpop act...hohohoho..but all that wont be accomplished w/o support by other countries' elf too!!!hohohoho...



SHINING STAR
uwaaa!!!leeteuk cried!!saNkyuu again malaysia..the torch project had accomplished...mind my grammar..hohohoho...yesung n donghae cried too!!uwaaa!!n mira cried too..i didnt..sob3..hmmm...but i doubt the shining star only will make them come back again...please do...sob3...but overall i fink malaysian's elfs r okla...n other countries too..saw many indonesians n sporeans..i heard spore fans were giving out free torches is it??woot woot..hohohoho...

da power of torch..??hmm..hohohoho..

after the show..still waiting for suJu to come out...sadly not..sob3..

ppl still waiting to get a glimpse of suJu...

HOHOHOHO
we climbed the college's gate...muahahaha..sob3 my legs were short..hohohoho..
n the police that came across honked at us lol..luckily they didnt tell the guards..hohohoho...
*wink*

sorry didnt take many pix..coz i wan to enjoy the show instead of recording it all the time...hohoho..well it's my first con..so yeah...

saNkyuu saNkyuu saNkyuu...had a great time..!!!suJu do come back again!!!hohohoho..

omg!!!i love it...hohohohoho...HP...^^

i love it...hohohoho..HEAVEN's POSTMAN...hohohoho... didNt expect that JJ turned out that good...i mean... juz look at baNJuN period... i think yuNHo is the best one...but now i love him acting.. yay JJ..wud love to see him acting more in dramas N movies...

it was a nice love story eventho it's kiNda boring in the middle...hohohoho... surprisingly i turned out being rather calm abt the kiss.. .i think it's coz of the ligthing n all...hohohoho.. i was so heartbroken seeing the HQ pix coz it's so clear..n the gifs..omg..die...but now i'm ok...hohohoho^^ near the ending was kiNda sad but it turned out the otherwise coz the nurse fell down.. lmao..i laughed so hard...mianhe nurse-shi or whoever u are...hohohoho...



n..n...forgot to tell u guys..JJ was one hell hot postman...omg the letters juz burnt...boom!!hohohohoho...he's sure hottest postman any post office cud hire..^^





but i love the ending...uwaaa!!!hakusYu for kitagawa-san...omg she's one hell of a fangirl.. completely drooling over JJ...lol..kitagawa-san..u got husband u know...hohohoho...^^


on his way to JeJu island for filming...fighting changmin!!!hohohoho...^^



uwaaaa!!!n now cant wait dor changmin's drama!!!uwaaa!!!luckily i like lee yoen hee...i approved our changmin wif her...*bricked*...hohohohoho...(^^)v

go watch it u guys...HP...^___^



CREDITS : hanleidbsk@wordpress n as tagged...^^

SHINee vs teletubbies....^^

here, i present u SHINee.....

i guess it's so diggy diggy ding ding even teletubbies wanna do a parody of it too...hoohoho..^^






i call u butterfly....^^







and...
N not so SHINee ones!!!hohohoohoho..^^










wut the??lala's pregnant??but she's too young to be...
omg the baby's so orange



but they r not too young to be sexy??hohohohoho..+____+




behave my fellow tubbies....(^__^)v

A/N : another fail crack attempt...sob3...hohohoho...
CREDITS: jellomy@utube N kpopsubs@utube

R u a tRue cassie??hohoohoho....

find out here..hohoohohoh...(^__^)V
how much do u love dbsK?

alwaYs keep tHe faitH..!!!

#@*^%@*#&^*@#&^#*&@^ SM!!!!!

hello...i wan 10 bags of chestnuts....

ok..roger that hyung....

hmmpff....more chestnuts to peel?poor JJ....



A/N: ok that was random....i totally fail at crack...aish...hohoohoho...ma ii ka...la la la

to buY oR Not to buY...??uwaaaa!!!hohohohoho.....

HaMlet...???sHaKespeaRe...???hohohohohohoh.....woah suddenly into literature...

To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pitch and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action

uwaaa...wut do i even care with this long poem of shakepeare??

actually i was on the fence on whether to buy AADBSK III

or not..uwaaa!!talk abt maJor expensive...

but not as expensive as JapaN veRsioN...

i almost die seeing the price...hohohoho..

but now knowing that koRean veRsion is MORE cheaper

i was thinking hard whether to buy oR not...hohohoho

*hit by JPA*....+_+

hohohohoho.....

oh well i never bought any original cds from dbsk..

well practically bcoz i have NO moneY...

but now..aish so many BUTs...hohohoho...

but seeing the list of vids inside i can say that it's worthy tho..

hohohohohoho..or is it not??*hit myself*

so now.....??

uwaaaa...waNNa buY so much....

uwaaa....i hope the photobook and hard case still available....

click to enlarge...*like u guys waN to*...hohoohoho..^^

CREDIT: lovetohateme.wordpress.com and sharingyoochun.wordpress.com

MAIN POINT: uwaaa!!!reallY waNa buY...!!!
YOUR TASK: buY one for me!!!*like that goNNa happen...*dang!!!hohohohohoh
SIDE DISH: u guys watched renaissance man??uwaaaa!!love that movie...wicked...hohohoho....

bRowN eyed giRls vS black eyed giRls....??^^hohohoho

uuuuuuuu....weeeeeeeiiiiiiiiii......
*g dragon's style*....^^hohohohoho..

VS

yep....that's right...it's time for brown eyed girls...hohohooho...^^

lately i've been listening to their songs...they have been songs in head...in my head..^^

so addictive...hohohohohoho....

i love ojjeoda/how come...uwaaaa....love the rappingg....

gotta love this one...hohohohohoho.. my 2 fav soNgs.....^^

try "my style"...not bad...hohohohoho...

they are not that popular back then..but in 2008 they won golden disk award for digital single..
woot woot...^^...this year i think there wud tough competition bet them N other girl grps...
i waN them oR 2NE1 to win....
thumbs uP if 2NE1 win...uwaaaaaa....
they just debuted man...hohohohohoho..

with candy man N abRacadRabRa they are said to be ahead of 2NE1's i duN caRe(love the soNg)
aNd big baNg's gara gara go(love tis soNg too^^)...
imagine that...go BEG!!!^^...hohohohoohoho...



Jea...

leadeR...

naRsHa...

vocal...




favoRite MeMBeR....

.Ga iN N MiRyo.

Ga iN....not haN ga iN....if yes chaNgmiN will dRool oveR heR ryte NoW...^^

vocal.....hohohohohoho

.MiRyo.
raPPeR...love heR rapping...hohohoho..attitude..
just like cl...^^hohohoho...

woot woot...

CREDITS: tomandhalle@utube, megrye@flickr
MAIN POINT: they have brown eyes guys!!!hohohohohoho...(^^)v
YOUR TASK: buy me contact lens...+_+..hohohoohoho....

saNgil chuKahaMNida....hohohohoh...

hePi bdaY to ouR leadeR shi...hohohohoho...

hepi 26th or 27th bday...but i waN 26th...coz closer to me..*hit myself*...*hit by kangiN*...
hohoohohoho.....




uwaaaa....drool....





call 911....suM1 got nosebleed here.....hohohoho...+_+





uwaaa...the sMile...hohohohoo...





maJor...maJor nosebleed here....uwaaa.....the diMples....killiNg me....



die...period...


wisH u a Hepi yeaR ahead....N suJu as well...hohohohoho....
they already did so well for the 1st half of the year..hwaitiNg..!!!~~

CREDIT: lovesuJu@flickr
MAIN POINT: have a great bday eeteuk oPPa...hohohoho....^^
YOUR TASK: hands off him...>.<..hohohoho...